Your are enough

This is a complex subject, for me anyway, so I’ll try and articulate my thoughts as best as possible …

Throughout my life I’ve always tried to “be someone”, without realizing that I already was.

When you are young, you soak up everything around you like a sponge.

You form connections with others around you, each relationship affecting your thoughts and your identity in ways that, at the time you don’t fully comprehend or understand.

Our young minds are exposed to many different experiences and interactions, that often overwhelm us internally, leaving their emotional “echo” in our memory as we progress through our lives and well into later life.

We become accustomed to things around us, familiarizing ourselves with what is acceptable and what isn’t, and often learn how we should “be”.

Our identity becomes shaped as a result of many things. The pressures of the outside world molding us into this “character”, doing everything that’s expected of us, unless of course we have our own learned understanding from “within”, or at least a feeling that something’s not quite right.

Some times in your life you meet children that seem very old and wise for their age, just as though they’ve retained elements of themselves from a previous life.

Whilst I have many happy memories, the overwhelming feeling from my childhood was that of fear … of both ridicule and disapproval. Up until the age of, perhaps 8 (?), I feel that I was a very confident and happy child, exploring and adventuring as most kids do. Then suddenly, it seems that somehow my persona changed to something completely different.

Now perhaps, as with most memories, my account of things has been edited each time it has been re-visited and I have subtly and unconsciously changed my version of events, perhaps to fit in with my current beliefs about myself?

When trying to deduce your personality type (introvert or extrovert and their sub-types), there’s often a feeling that it’s not quite “cut and dried” as that. Often you feel the urge to be more outgoing, whilst due to your self-limiting behaviors, you would often describe yourself as an introvert.

I often think about how others try so hard to construct and perfect their “character” on the outside, what must they be experiencing on the inside?

Some of the most successful people in the world are “driven” towards achievement, at least in the material sense. Whilst most creative, inspirational and inventive types, don’t actually benefit from their creations at all, and their ideas and creations are quickly exploited by the corporate machines.

I think as you get older, you either put up walls or you break them down.

There may be many internal struggles going on within a person for many years after a traumatic event. Whether it be physical or emotional trauma, left unresolved it can shape your whole outlook on life and direct you into situations that are incongruous to your natural, internal life.

To find “harmony” in life, I feel that we need to reconnect with our internal self. This is of course, highly likely to cause conflict across a wide spectrum of things on the outside, so this may consist of small changes at first.

The world we live in can be a very demanding place and our characters have been adapted to fit into their roles. We naturally do what is expected of us, unless of course we are controlling others in order for them to do our bidding for us.

I pity those who view the world with a dog eat dog approach, lacking a moral compass which has been taken away at some point or perhaps never introduced or developed in the first place.

Unlike during the time(s) in Rome, when the citizens (the Plebs) left the city when the ruling class were passing difficult and perhaps immoral rulings, our modern society is far more entrenched and the freedoms of the individual are left with seemingly very little options available to them.

Perhaps what I’m trying to get at, is that there is no action that the individual can do to change his or her life, other than to realize that we have all of the answers within ourselves. And in the world of digital distractions, you are kept away from your perfect self.

You are enough.