Clarity

Now, I have a very reactive mind. From the moment I wake up I have to (try to) “turn down the volume”. Reacting to outside dramas and stimuli seems to have been my default setting for years. Lets face it, there is plenty to react to …

For years I have been an emotional over-thinker. Only fairly recently, and probably as a result of much self reflecting, my thinking pattern has changed to having a more logical and solid thought process. Almost like having another person in my head, this could be a sibling or a close friend, someone whose opinion you respect, or much needed support has helped you through a difficult time in your life.

I originally planned to write about AI … and how a more logical thought process can help to alleviate many problems relating to stress and anxiety.

Some years ago now, I “compared notes” with someone else. We shared a feeling that although being alone, even in a room full of people, it felt like we were surrounded by “zombies”. Each conversation was like a product, a talking point of the media … like a series of programs running endlessly, almost like being in some kind of simulation. It’s hard to feel connected to a real person, someone that has a real sense of free, original thought.

See, there’s very little to distinguish us from AI really. Although we do have emotions, we are often castigated for exhibiting them, particularly in the early years. So we develop ways to hide or block emotions, which leads to forms of depression and anxiety in later life.

To this end, we become like empty vessels. We proceed to cling on to “beliefs”, not originally our own, based on some writings or stories passed on to us. We become programmed in how to act and react. We are triggered into feeling something, usually fear but sometimes hate, leading to judge anyone that is different.

I was also thinking about other peoples fascination of fiction, or fantasy. Particularly the latter, whereby nearly every popular film these days is from a Marvel comic or involves people with special powers. This, I feel, appears to me to be deliberate programming. Obsessions are not only big business, but they more importantly rob the individual of their own creative reality.

To what end this programming leads them to I’m not sure, other than restricting freedom of thought and blinding the individual from knowledge. Turning thinking, feeling human beings into mere machines. Maybe it’s just for consumerism, but it feels a lot more insidious than that.

With each newer generation, this seems to be even more and more evident. Keeping people from asking questions about deeper and more meaningful subjects, in order to keep a tight control on the population perhaps.

You see, we live in an age where we have the technology to give everyone anything they would want to survive and live a long and healthy life, yet it’s held back. The majority of people are trapped in a seemingly endless cycle. Like rats in a maze …